It was maybe 6 years ago and I was in a really terrible place in my life, alone and very down. I was searching for reasons to go on, pleading with God or something to save me from this mess I had created of my life to this point. I was laying in my bathtub, no water in there, just a safe little place for me to hide this night and I said that's it - I don't want to live anymore unless there is something for me to live for. I then got out of the tub, weak from hunger and terribly thin, tired and sad and crawled into bed. The next thing I know I'm above my body and I see myself laying on the bed and I am rising up and up - so light and free. I am aware only of the essence of myself, no body - just total awareness of BEING. I was then in a dark place and I was looking around and I could feel other's around me but I couldn't quite see them or make out what they were saying. Then I saw the light at the far end of the tunnel and it was the most beautiful and pure love I have ever witnessed and it pulled me in like a magnet as though I could not help myself. All I wanted was to go there like nothing I have ever wanted in my life and I knew this could not be wrong. It must be like how a baby feels in it's mother's arms, gazing up into her eyes for the first time - that light and intensity they share. Then I heard a voice to my left say, "Stephanie, what are you doing here?" And I looked to see my grandfather and he was concerned, I could tell he didn't agree with what was happening. He said, "it's not time yet for you - you have to go back." I was so hurt that I couldn't go forth, as though I was being rejected form something so wonderful - but I also knew that I had to listen to him.
Then with a jerk I was back into my body and awoke with the most intense hunger like I have never had in my life. I jumped out of bed and bolted to the fridge and started eating whatever I could find in there - it wasn't much. Then I realized what had happened...my life has never been the same. About a week later I met the love of my life, within a year and a half I was blessed with my first child and then my second. I never take life or anyone in my life for granted. I know that there is something out there far greater than we can even begin to realize and I have made it my life's purpose to set as many minds to rest as I can with this knowledge. All a soul has to do is remember from whence they came and where they are going... it is nothing to be frightened of - it is going home and going home is always a beautiful thing.
~Blessings~
Stef
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ReplyDeletei would like to share something, i am 52 now.i started meditating at the age of 13, every time i closed my eyes, i saw myself flying, out of my body....yes i saw myself flying....feeling has been, of BEING light as a feather.Even now , at times, i do feel as if i can watch my body from outside.
Thanks for sharing your experience! Out of body experiences are amazing!
DeleteBeautiful sharing Staphanie. Something quite similar happened to me too, although nobody spoke to me in that realm, but two figures appeared at the entrance to the Light and with a hand gesture said that I could not enter and I was zapped back to my body, but it took many more seconds for me to gain full control over my body. I didn't know what had happened and I was very scared as soon as I woke up. Then slowly what had happened dawned on me. This was about 5-6 years ago. Until last year, I didn't give it much attention or thought, but that is when I came across Anita Moorjani, Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle and Mooji. Now I have more understanding and live more peacefully without any fear of death. Also I have come to understand and believe that we need not have to die to go Home. Home is where the Heart is and it can also be in the Now. Blessings.
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